stepping out of my comfort zone

So part of my journey is to not only change my physical self but to also change my inner self.  To grow as a dancer, I have decided to step out of my comfort zone and teach bellydancing classes at lunchtime, at work, for free.  I've been doing this for a month now and I have a following; some regulars and some not so regulars.  I have chosen some great tunes and simple, basic moves.  The ladies have a blast and so do I!  They've come to like the shimmy drill for 2:42 seconds.  (they smile through their grunts! LOL)  They're starting to know what moves go with what song and I love it!  Makes me sweat, makes me move and makes me perfect the basic core moves.  I'm even considering making more flyers for the other divisions on my floor (I post them at the photocopiers!).  As the weeks progress, I'll switch it up and get new tunes.  :)  Yalla ladies, yalla! 

We are all beautiful

Something has been on my mind a lot and keeps frustrating me every time I think about it.  A few months ago, I stopped HM’s supplements and continued my healthier lifestyle on my own.  As I was paid up until end of June, I went back after a month to get weighed in.  The HM’s representative’s attitude really bothered me and obviously still does to this date.  Before weighing me, she commented that by me not taking the supplements, i’d get fat and expressed absolute shock when I got on the scale and had lost 5lbs.  It made me feel like I HAD to take the supplements in order to succeed and that there was absolutely NO WAY that I could do this on my own.   These comments negated the fact that I had worked so hard to get to where I am today and made me feel bad.   I was too shocked at both comments (the ‘’watch out or you’ll get fat again’’ and the absolute shock of me losing weight on my own).   I understand that I’ve built a rapport with her but it was immature of her to talk to me that way.  A small victory for me for the look on her face when she saw how much I had lost, but still.... 

2 weeks ago, I went again, this time with another HM representative, and had another comment that threw me for a loop.  We were looking at my pics of when I started my journey with them.   Yes, I was 60lbs heavier.  I know that, but I was still beautiful, in my eyes.  I told her this.  Her comment was that it was a self defence mechanism.  Um, what?  I don’t get it.  I think, regardless of your size, you are beautiful.  WE ARE ALL CREATED BEAUTIFULLY!  I wasn’t losing weight because I wanted society to look at me to find me prettier, I was losing weight for me, for my health. 

It’s little comments like this that puts me off.  I skipped last week because of this.  I see her car there and keep driving.  No thanks, will try and go another time when someone else is there. 

I am still losing weight, without the supplements but am eating healthier and keeping fit.  In a way, I am looking forward to not having to go in to get weighed but a part of me feels that they’ve taught me well as I am embracing the new me and my new lifestyle!